no better

im still not feelin better.dh went off withdd to his parents, i just lay in bed.then said feck it!its beautiful day,so i got up n brought dog to the forest.when got home dh n dd came back,we are not talking now.i dont care really,so,sick of thi life!im not the owrlds best mother u know? i have no patience,well,not as much as id like.shes just got mind of hr own like her dad n no matter wht i sayto her she just does her own thing like him.im so tired.i have to bring her t b day party tomorro but i dont ant to go cos my friends a pain in the ass.her ds has started at my dd school and now she thinks she owns it and thinks hes the best student and that the teacher is her best fucking friend!! dont want to go cos cant listen to that shit anymore.i cant wait for counsellin monday.i sound like a selfish bitch i know but ive had 8 long years of my dh dragging me down.hes dragged all the life out of me.ive no happiness left inside me.is there anyone who can relate to me?anyone married to someone with bipolar and unfertile man?sound like a bitch dont i?im not though!ive spent 8 yrs trying to sort him n forgot bout myself!